Anger only Breeds anger

I have been losing my temper very often as of late. Once my emotions were like a well controlled dam, I would release a bit at a time when the situation called, but now I cant seem to hold back the flood. Upside I had spectacular sex as a result of being so mad, granted at first I was so wound up I couldn't keep focus and the two things you never want to happen happened, I released too early and I had to take a really hot piss. After that though once my heart was put back into a calm place. All engines were go.

Moving on from my state of emotion, god forbid I rant on about my emotions in a blog :-p. I was making my usual Youtube rounds of things that I must see and I was just about to type in Fox news racism when I had a change of heart. I did a youtube style search for Dave Chappelle. That my friends is when I found it. Dave Chappelle on Inside the actors studio. It was an emotional, funny, raw type of experience. It was the type of episode that inspires me to get on my metaphysical grind and put the pen to the pad.

I came up with 4 story ideas and I started writing two. The Gotham writers workshop is a go and I am starting to wonder why am I in college. I wish I had a dirty box studio apartment sharing with a roomie working out a Denny's. I want to be a real writer, not this shell of a man. With everyday that passes I feel my soul getting closer to death, and it aint going to heaven o no, its going to the other place.

I wonder if Satan has a wireless LAN connection, eternal flames aren't so bad if I can create hope with my writing. Note to self, if you go to hell remember to take hope, Its the one thing hell doesn't have, and wont allow.